How the people we know help us build our story

I tend to have weird dreams or not dream at all at night. When I can't really understand what happened I like to search the meanings on my favorite website. The dream I had last night though, was pretty clear and satisfying.

If you have read/watched Snowpiercer you'll understand what I'm talking about. Imagine with me that the train, instead of classes, is divided in years, our life years. We are born in the tail and go up, meet people, some that will come with us for a while, some that will use us to get to the next wagon. And don't be mistaken, we're not always the hero in our stories even though we'd like to think like that.

So in the dream, I was me, with the knowledge I have today but the age I had according to the wagon. The thing about it was: I knew what I was doing, the good and the bad, but knew I shouldn't change anything. It was cathartic to see people come and leave, knowing what would happen but making myself go through it anyway. For example, having dinner at my house every week with some middle school friend that I knew would suddenly come up with gossip about me, ex boyfriends that I would have to "lead on", knowing we'd break up for character development... You get the idea.

The interesting part for me was that, knowing what I know now and where I ended up in life, even though I was going through things that were sad at the time, it just warmed my heard tremendously. When I woke up I was overwhelmed with this sense of gratitude for all the people that were/are in my life, all the hardships and good memories I still have even if we're not in touch anymore. I'd like to say thank you to all the people that did me wrong and I hope the ones I did wrong understand and forgive me too. We do what we think is right at the time, for most of the time, I'd hope.

The best part is that when I woke up, my husband hugged me and I went back to sleep.

It's amazing how such complex dreams happen in just a few moments in the brain.